I leave town for just a couple days...last week...and I completely lost touch with my dear little ole blog!
And I was doing so well there for a bit :)
I know, I know, I kind of left everything hanging there for awhile, but no worries, I did not fall off of the planet maybe just my 'rocker'. hehe
And now that I remember that my poor ole blog is being neglected...I'll try my best to make up for it ;)
Wednesday, June 29, 2011
Saturday, June 18, 2011
Which "Brown" Are You?
Lately, I've been finding myself using several different nicknames around here.
The three top ones:
"Charlie"
"Buster" and...
"Leroy"
Usually, I only use the first name, but yesterday I realized that with all three of these names I could add the word "Brown" after them ("Charlie Brown," "Buster Brown," and "Leroy Brown") and they would all three make sense/reference something else. Plus, I have actually added the "brown" on occasion.
Hmmm...not sure what it's all about, but I did find the connection interesting :)
The three top ones:
"Charlie"
"Buster" and...
"Leroy"
Usually, I only use the first name, but yesterday I realized that with all three of these names I could add the word "Brown" after them ("Charlie Brown," "Buster Brown," and "Leroy Brown") and they would all three make sense/reference something else. Plus, I have actually added the "brown" on occasion.
Hmmm...not sure what it's all about, but I did find the connection interesting :)
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
How Observant Are You? :)
Notice anything different?
I've done a bit of "tweaking" and will probably be doing some more over the next few weeks.
It feels like it's time to "change" things up around here~the blog is about as close as I can get to 'interior decorating' ;) Things don't/can't get changed up around my own house nearly as often! ;)
I've done a bit of "tweaking" and will probably be doing some more over the next few weeks.
It feels like it's time to "change" things up around here~the blog is about as close as I can get to 'interior decorating' ;) Things don't/can't get changed up around my own house nearly as often! ;)
Tuesday, June 14, 2011
Happy Anniversary!
Today marks 8 years of marriage for Scott and me! It's been crazy at times, but a wonderful ride overall :)
Happy Anniversary! I love you, Scott!
I heard this song by my by man, George :), the other day & it definitely reminded me of Scott and his love for me! Enjoy!
Happy Anniversary! I love you, Scott!
I heard this song by my by man, George :), the other day & it definitely reminded me of Scott and his love for me! Enjoy!
Monday, June 13, 2011
I'm Back!
We made it home from vacation on Saturday and I've got several blog posts in the works :)
Stay tuned for an upcoming post about the "highlights" of our recent trip!
Stay tuned for an upcoming post about the "highlights" of our recent trip!
Tuesday, June 7, 2011
Bon Voyage!
Only momentarily ;)
Don't expect posts for a few more days while I enjoy some more summertime "fun in the sun!"
I'll try to post an update sometime over the weekend!
Don't expect posts for a few more days while I enjoy some more summertime "fun in the sun!"
I'll try to post an update sometime over the weekend!
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
The Good Thing About a Mess
Is that messes hide those things that one would rather leave hidden...
I've been working on cleaning up & out our bedroom today. Some friends & I are holding a garage sale this weekend & I've been trying to "sort out" what needs to be gone from our house :)
Anyway, it has amazed me what type of stuff has been dumped in our bedroom, especially on my side of the room.
It has also completely caught me off guard.
Among the things I've found: an old planner, a pacifier, a diaper & feelings that overwhelmed me so quickly that I was taken quite by surprise.
The planner was from 2008-2009 & I thought it was neat to flip through the pages and remember what things were important that year, trying to remember what some of the references were referring too, realizing how much life really does change in 2 years, and then I got to the last page or so & read "[name omitted] Due Date!"
Baby E's mom.
Realizing that Saturday is his birthday & that if things had been different, I would be planning a birthday party for a 2 year old right now...but I'm not. I flipped another page in the planner and saw "Tutoring Meeting 9 a.m." and remembered how I went ahead and attended that meeting and how it was one of the hardest things I ever made myself do. It was less than 24 hours after we had returned Baby E to his mother and no one at school had heard yet that it had all fallen apart. It was difficult, awkward at times & very sad for me, but I was determined to go on with things 'as normal.'
I was still okay at this point in the cleaning process, they were, after all, just memories...sad ones, but memories. Then I found the diaper and pacifier buried in a basket. Both of them were "his." I was still okay, until I threw them away...
the physical act of letting those two items go, unexpectedly, tapped into that well & the tears just started flowing.
I was dumbstruck. How could I be crying? Really?
I tried to make myself stop, but my body was determined to get it out so I let it.
Now none of these things has been just sitting in our bedroom for 2 years straight, they've each kind of 'flowed' from place to place and their most recent landing spot was our bedroom. It was finally time to let them go.
I do still think and wonder about Baby E, probably quite a bit more often than many people would ever realize...wondering how he is, what mischief he might be getting into, what milestones he has reached, and I know that I always will. He was my son, my child, if only for a brief moment. That is a loss that I will always carry with me & it is a loss that will never be evident to most. I am also aware that it is a loss that some will never be able to understand or how it may have affected each of us here in this house.
How can it be that memories can sometimes feel as "fresh" as the moment they originally happened? So, the mess is cleaned up & those memories that were "buried" deep in the piles are now at the surface once again, for the moment anyway. And as I did then, I'm just going to keep moving on (& hopefully, won't find anymore "buried treasures" :) and keep on cleaning!
I've been working on cleaning up & out our bedroom today. Some friends & I are holding a garage sale this weekend & I've been trying to "sort out" what needs to be gone from our house :)
Anyway, it has amazed me what type of stuff has been dumped in our bedroom, especially on my side of the room.
It has also completely caught me off guard.
Among the things I've found: an old planner, a pacifier, a diaper & feelings that overwhelmed me so quickly that I was taken quite by surprise.
The planner was from 2008-2009 & I thought it was neat to flip through the pages and remember what things were important that year, trying to remember what some of the references were referring too, realizing how much life really does change in 2 years, and then I got to the last page or so & read "[name omitted] Due Date!"
Baby E's mom.
Realizing that Saturday is his birthday & that if things had been different, I would be planning a birthday party for a 2 year old right now...but I'm not. I flipped another page in the planner and saw "Tutoring Meeting 9 a.m." and remembered how I went ahead and attended that meeting and how it was one of the hardest things I ever made myself do. It was less than 24 hours after we had returned Baby E to his mother and no one at school had heard yet that it had all fallen apart. It was difficult, awkward at times & very sad for me, but I was determined to go on with things 'as normal.'
I was still okay at this point in the cleaning process, they were, after all, just memories...sad ones, but memories. Then I found the diaper and pacifier buried in a basket. Both of them were "his." I was still okay, until I threw them away...
the physical act of letting those two items go, unexpectedly, tapped into that well & the tears just started flowing.
I was dumbstruck. How could I be crying? Really?
I tried to make myself stop, but my body was determined to get it out so I let it.
Now none of these things has been just sitting in our bedroom for 2 years straight, they've each kind of 'flowed' from place to place and their most recent landing spot was our bedroom. It was finally time to let them go.
I do still think and wonder about Baby E, probably quite a bit more often than many people would ever realize...wondering how he is, what mischief he might be getting into, what milestones he has reached, and I know that I always will. He was my son, my child, if only for a brief moment. That is a loss that I will always carry with me & it is a loss that will never be evident to most. I am also aware that it is a loss that some will never be able to understand or how it may have affected each of us here in this house.
How can it be that memories can sometimes feel as "fresh" as the moment they originally happened? So, the mess is cleaned up & those memories that were "buried" deep in the piles are now at the surface once again, for the moment anyway. And as I did then, I'm just going to keep moving on (& hopefully, won't find anymore "buried treasures" :) and keep on cleaning!
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